My Forthcoming Memoir, Can You Hear the Music?
I started writing my memoir to help me make sense of what happened when I was very ill and received my diagnosis of bipolar disorder. I continued the process because it was very cathartic. Putting the difficult symptoms of psychosis and suicidal ideation on paper made them somehow less scary and more manageable. In 2022, despite the COVID pandemic, my mental health is the best it has ever been, and I am turning my attention back to my work with renewed energy. I am committed to finishing the book and publishing it as soon as I can get to it. The current draft sits at over 60,000 words, and I am in the process of editing and adding content. I plan to have a final draft complete and professionally edited later this year.
Ann Jeffers has it all–a devoted partner, a loving and healthy son, and a successful career as a tenure-track professor in a top-ranked engineering program at the University of Michigan. Following her diagnosis of bipolar disorder, while trying to conceive a second child, her world shatters. The bipolar disorder is complicated by the trauma she carries from the Virginia Tech shooting, resulting in a perfect nightmare each time she steps foot in the classroom. She embarks on a journey in search of the right medications and therapy, holding on to the hope that something must be able to help her feel normal again. But despite her best efforts, she suffers debilitatingly low depressions and dangerously high manias peppered with delusions and hallucinations. In a race against time, Ann strives to attain stability before her tenure evaluation, which could grant her job security for life. Through Ann's journey, we learn perseverance, the power of love, and the healing that can take place when the stigma of mental illness is overcome.
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